Its the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And its hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. Its crazy when you want to let go,  but you keep holding on, and you want to move on, but youre stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you cant decide what you want. when you have so many things to say, but you dont know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. Its so hard to think back how things used to be and look at it now and realize things are different, and they may never be the same again. You tell yourself its not worth it, but if it really didnt matter,  you wound spend so much time thinking about it.