Hi, So I'm
here to update you on recent things that have happened.
Today, Chance ate his first thing of baby food.
I wasn't aloud to give him much because it
makes him very sick to his stomach. But he ate carrots. He
absolutely loved them. His dad came to see him today for
the first time since he was born. He didn't stay
with me through the pregnancy, even though he knew it was
his he demanded a test. I felt like he didn't
trust me enough to deserve me, so I told him if he was
going to doubt me not to stay, and he didn't. He
had no Idea about Chance being sick. He picked
him up for the first time and I actually seen him cry but
he wiped the tear away before it got to far down his face.
I don't regret anything as of now, but I have a feeling
down the road I will. It's not very often I get to
hold him because he has so many things hooked up to him
that I'm scared to. It's not that I don't love
him, I just can't I'm scared to feel him like this.
But I picked him up today, and his eyes got extremely
bright, and excited. He actually reached up and touched my
face. I thank god everyday for giving me such a
special little boy.
StayStrongChanceLee<3
12 faves · May 18, 2012 10:49pm