Dear ex-boyfriend,
You were my friend since fourth grade. In fifth grade I had the
biggest crush on you, but we ended upgoing to different middle
schools. When my parents moved our house, I started going to your
school, and I was put in the same class as you. I wouldn't
admit to anyone, but I still liked you and never got over you. I
wouldn't even admit it to you. Throughout sixth and seventh
grade, we got so much closer and became best friends; I helped
you out with your relationships, while I had none, because I was
waiting for you to fall for me the way I had for you. In eigth
grade you even dated my best friend, who I didn't tell that I
liked you,but you broke her heart 4 times. I still stayed close
with you, because I knew you longer. And then you started liking
me, and wanted to date me, but my friend wasn't yet over you
so I suggested we wait until she got over you, and she did.
We started going out but I was so shy, and so you broke it
off. Later on that year, we started dating again, and I
wasn't shy anymore, but then you broke it off for some
unexplained reason. Then you begged and pleaded for me back, and
I took you back. We dated for another week, and then you broke it
off again, saying that it was too weird for you, because we were
so close. The next day, you started dating someone else. I told
my best friends, and I even cried infront of them. I felt so
pathetic for even giving you a chance. But you carried on, and
started acting friendly again, so that it wouldn't be
awkward, and I agreed and we became friends again, but it
wasn't the same. Later in the Summer, we started talking
everyday, and seeing each other every day, and I knew those
feelings were returning, and you admitted they were for you too.
We were supposed to kiss, but I couldn't make it one day. And
then you went and kissed one of my best friends. At that moment,
I was so upset, I didn't even think straight, I kept
convincing you that I was worth holding on to and giving you
reasons to like me and be with me, but it wasn't enough. I
didn't hang out with everyone for the rest of the summer
because of you,even though we went back to
"normal",whatever that is...So now we go to the same
high school,and our friendship will never be the same again. I
see you in the halls and hug you like I haven't seen you in
years, because it really feels that way, and I just miss you so
much. I can't be with anyone else without comparing them to
you, and I'm still holding onto the idea that we are meant to
be. I wish I could let go, because as of now you have a
girlfriend, who personally I think is disgusting, and a lady of
the night, but you always know how to let go of the good ones,
and chose the bad ones. I tell myself that if I ever had a chance
to be with you again, I wouldn't take it, but I'm lying
to myself, I'd go back in a heartbeat. I miss you so much,
and I still love you, but you'll never be able to see me in
that way again, and give me a chance to show you how great
I can be.
5 faves · 1 comments · May 6, 2012 4:42pm
rawr_ima_kitty · 1 decade ago
im so sorry :(
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