So, I know no one will
read this but tomorrow is going to be 1 year and about two months
since me and my ex broke up. Today, during class, my teacher played
one of the songs he had dedicated to me before we even started
going out. It was the song Animal by Neon Trees. I still remember it
like it was yesterday.I remember everything about him. Most
people think I'm pathetic the fact that I still do. That I
still cry at times over
him. "It's been a year why are you still on
him" well because I truley loved him and he lead me on
after wards. Judge me all you want but for me it was true love. I
guess I might be pathetic. But believe me, I tried dating again
afterwards. I tried dating about three times afterwards, three or
four. The first two or three times, I ended it. The last time? He
did. I did everything I could for him. I honestly was in love with
him and thought maybe he could be my love. I thought it was finally
perfect. I found out I was wrong. He dumped me because I apparently
was to hooked on my ex and because he was in love with some other
girl. Him and I continued to talk, despite how bad I was hurt. I
stopped talking to him a lot after wards because he lived far away.
We were dating via Online but I still loved him. I started coming
back on not to long ago and I come on to him saying how he
regretted it once I bought it up. He said he still loved me and
that I was perfect for him. That he regretted it and such. I posted
on his page how I loved him and got a message from a girl.
Telling me that he didn't love me and that she was his
girlfriend. I messaged him about it and he said yeah. I broke down
crying and told him goodbye and that I'd talk to him later. I
tried going to his page and I couldn't view it. He blocked me,
just flat out. My friend whom he had added sent me what he posted;
saying that I was the biggest mistake he had ever made. I realized
then that I was right from the time me and my ex I talked about in
the begining? I shouldn't have dated after him, ever again. I
should have left it at that heartbreak. Honestly, what was done was
cruel and I don't know what to do. After that happened, I did
something I had not done in a long while ago.
I made scars.
Tomorrow is going to be horrible for me, honestly. I just
wish that when he said forever he meant it, then I
wouldn't have gone through everything I did. I
shouldn't have had gone through it all. I
should still be his but he is in a happy relationship;
gay and with some guy. I still listen to our songs, and songs he
dedicated to me. Now I have two guys heavily on my mind from
heartbreak.
For all who read this; Thank you </3
So, I know no one will read this but tomorrow is going to be
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May 2, 2012 3:16pm
