I know no one cares, but I just have to say,

I hate the way you look at me with disgust and disdain. I hate the way no one talks to me and no one really cares, I hate the way under my eyes look, filled with tiredness and fear. I hate feeling like I'm unwanted by people, why can't I have one person who makes me feel like I am needed in their life? I hate how she had to leave me before I could really see just how amazing she was to me, and appreciate it fully. I hate the way I have no one to rely on. I hate the way you can do that to me, but I can't do it back. I am sick of being the one who has to tip-toe on egg shells, I want to be the one who can speak their mind. Most of all I hate crying about everything basically every night. I shouldn't have to cry about things that others take for granted. I know no one cares, and no one reads these, I just thought I'd get it out there. Maybe I'll heal.