I really
miss
The people that used to be in my life. My old friends.
I would give anything to just talk to each of them just one
more time and tell them that I'm sorry for not trying to make
things right when I had the chance. It wasn't that I
didn't want things to be okay again, because I
did, I just didn't know how to make them okay.
I've made mistakes and I've learned to look past my
own as well as other's, but everything in my life was just
one complete downward spiral. No matter how much time has
passed, I still feel like I owe each and every one of them an
apology. Not for the things that they accused me of doing,
but for not talking things through. For letting these
friendships end. I guess I just thought that maybe someone
would fight for me for once. But none of them did.
And I guess in reality, that makes them "bad"
friends anyways, but it doesn't stop my mind from wandering
to the memories of all the fun times we've shared. If I
could change things and make everyone happy, I would, but
I can't
And it's too late.
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