DAY TWELVE; letter to someone who causes you a
lot of pain.
great. So here it goes. I hope you don't
hate me after this. There's that part of me that really hates
you because of how much pain you caused me. The other parts of me
are dying, crying, trying to survive, and still loves you. I gave
up my chances with another guy for you. I always wait for that
moment for you to text me first so I feel like you actually want
to talk to me. Whenever I text you first I feel like I'm just
annoying Remember when you said you would love me till the last
rose in a dozen of fake roses die? YEAH. i think about that every
single night. Someone that I was talking to said that I should
make you feel guilty. But I don't because I love you so much.
I litterly can't concentrate on anything. Last night I spent
3 hours doing 10 math problems. I just can't tell if you
still love me or not. I told Kenny how much you mean to me.
FINALLY YOU NOTICE THAT I HAVEN'T BEEN THE SAME SINCE WE
BROKE UP. I litterly feel like I'm close to dying. I never
cried over a guy. I never felt this much pain over a breakup. You
really mean the most to me. Also, the one that causes me the most
pain. I don't know but maybe that's the reason why I have
chest pains. I hope you don't hate me.