i lost a very specail man yesterday. my grandpa. he was my daddy. he was there when my dad wasnt. i was downstairs and i heard him cough and then my grandma panic. i called 911 but by the time they got there i knew it was to late. i wanted and still am strying to belivie im in bad dream and when i wake up he will be sitting on the cough waiting to cook me food. i know this will never happen but im just going to think it will. ive had 6 panic attacks. ive almost had to go to the hosptial. im still shaking the sight was so scary. all i want to say is that i love you and will mis you papa <3 
12-11-11