This is just to vent, 

When I was little I had to take a medicine that helped me in school, it changed me, I was different, and I noticed that in school, I hated how it changed me, but it also helped, I need it now but I don't want to take it. I don't want to  do my homework even though I have alot, I could finish it now but I don't want to. I don't listen in class, I daydream and end up missing out on stuff, I don''t study for tests anymore, and I feel like a snob because I want attention. I have only 3 friends at school, I had a lot before we moved, I barely get out of the house anymore. I don't get A's and B's anymore, and this is me without the medicine, is this who I'm suppose to be? It's like I don't care anymore  I only care for myself, I want to cry but if my mom comes in an asks whats wrong, she doesn't understand and there's nothing she can do. I feel like im careless, I could make my self do the work, but I let the lazy side get the best of me. My medicine is to strong and I get so very bored, i don't know what to do, I either want to die or cry....