First chapter.. tell me if I should continue?
Thursday 9/30
It was 10 AM, my alarm was going off. Last night I had set the
sound to be Justin Bieber so that I could wake up to the sound of
someone that I loved. I dismissed the alarm and sat up. I stared
out the window to find that today was going to be a beautiful
day. Yesterday it had been rainy and on days like that I just
know I won’t have a great day. I got out of bed, and walked
over to my window to look outside. I thought to myself, today
will be a wonderful day. So many things were running through my
head. The first was that I needed to shower, my hair wasn’t
looking as shiny as it usually does. I showered, shaved, and
washed my face. After doing so I proceeded back to my room to get
dressed. I looked all around my room and just thought, oh my
gosh, what to wear. I would find things that I really liked but I
had nothing to pair them with. I put one thing on and then
realized it looked better folded in my drawer. I didn’t
know whether today I wanted to wear pants or leggings, a shirt,
or a dress. I was so confused, and running out of time to think
of something. I have and appointment today at 2 with my counselor
Aubry. I
like talking to her, for once I have someone to talk to that
isn’t part of the issue, someone who won’t judge me
for feeling a certain way. Anyways back to what I was saying,
what was it again? Oh yeah I had no time to just sit there and
try everything on, so I picked up the closest thing to me, a
dress. It was a floral dress that my aunt had bought for me this
summer. I liked it, and although it was already fall it was warm
enough out today to get one last wear before it’s way to
cold. I put the dress on and looked in the mirror. I thought to
myself, wow I don’t look so bad, usually I can never say
something like that about myself, but something was different
about the way I was feeling today. This was exciting me, for once
I was in a positive mood, about almost everything. I was about to
put make up on, and fix my hair up nice, when all of a sudden
there was a knock on my door. It was my dad. When I opened the
door he looked very angry. He started to tell me how he was
having a bad day and that it was ruined, blah blah blah. One
thing that you should probably know about my dad is that when he
is mad or has a strong feeling about something he yells.
Sometimes he doesn’t mean to, but he does it without
thinking. He was “yelling” at me about everything he
could possibly think about. On the outside I kept a straight face
pretending like this didn’t bother me any, but really on
the inside it was killing me. You see, whenever someone yells
whether it is towards me or not, I get anxious and start to get
frustrated. He had gone on for about 5 minutes and finally he
paused for a second. I took that opportunity to shut the door and
lock it. Of course that may have not been the most respectful
thing to do, but I was just getting so mad. I proceeded back
upstairs into my room, and sat on my bed. Thinking to myself I
said ” so much for that great day huh.” I texted my mom.
The text read ” WE NEED TO MOVE NOW” See one thing
you may not know is that my parents are divorced and I live in a
duplex. A duplex is a kind of house that has two different sides.
Basically that means that there were once two houses and they
were put together. Well any who, I live on one side, while my dad
and grandmother live on the other. You are probably asking
yourself where my grandfather lives, but he passed away in 07.
What a terrible year that was, and it seems like the years to
follow have been just as bad. Losing him tore my family apart,
and what used to be isn’t. We are moving soon
anyways,
but I just want out now. I hate living here. Everyone always says
your house is your home, well my house is just a house, I
don’t have a home, and right now that is what I need. I
want to be able to go home and sit down and feel like everything
is alright. When we move it will just be my mom, my little sister
Rebecca, she is 12, and myself. I have two older siblings Jessica
who is 21 and Corey who is 22. Jessica is married and lives in
Tennessee with her husband, he is in the military. Corey is
single, but he has a son named Cameron. When we move he is moving
into his own place. Normally people would be upset about their
family splitting but I am excited for the new adventures to come.
Ops I just realized that I have been writing for over an hour,
and its now 12:16 and I have to leave at 1. Hurrying never works
out good for me, so I better be off.
Amanda.
baseballxpayton · 1 decade ago
your good:)
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