Don't Give Up
On Me Baby
"I know, I know," Jenna said, hugging me as I cried into her arms. We were sitting on my bed, practice had ended about 15 minutes ago. I continued sobbing and after about a half an hour, I finally calmed down enough to say,
"Jenna, I'm so sorry. I'm so so so sorry that you have to sit here with me every day for 2 hours while I bawl my eyes out like a baby. I'm so sorry you have to see me like this, but I don't know what I'd do without you. This past month has been unbelievably hard for me, and without you I don't know where I'd be. You could be with Evan right now, you're fuucking amazing boyfriend, but no, you're here with me who's a mess. And I really couldn't ask for a better best friend. I love you," I said, hugging her. Now it was Jenna's turn to shed a few tears.
"Paige don't you ever worry. I'm always here for you. What Ryan did to you was terrible. So fuucking terrible. And I'm so sorry you had to go through that. You know I'm always always here for you. And Evan understands too, you know that. But we have to get ready, the game's tonight and we're cheering, remember? So let's wipe away our tears, fix our makeup, do our hair, get dressed, and put a smile on that gorgeous
face of yours, alright?" I nodded and we got ready for the game. It was freezing
so we got to wear our sweats, which I was happy about. Once we were ready,
my older brother Jake drove us to the school where we started warming up
with the rest of the team. For the next 3 hours I'd get to cheer for the guy
who broke me apart. Great way to spend my Friday night, right?
"Paige, you're amazing. I don't know what I'd do without you baby. I know
we've only been dating for 5 months, but I never wanna lose you.
You're my everything. I love you Paige." He whispered those last
four words and I held onto them, loving the sound of them.
"I love you too Ryan," I smiled. He knew how much I needed him.
He's my everything. Without him, I'm nothing.
"Paige, Paige, snap out of it, we just scored a touchdown, we have
to do the cheer," Jenna said, nudging me.
"Oh, right," I said, starting the cheer. Once we finished, I turned to Jenna.
"Who scored it?" She just looked down and away. Oh. Ryan. Of course.
He's one of the best players on the team.I continued cheering and smiling
and acting like I was having the best time of my life. It wasn't that hard,
I'd gotten used to it by now. Once the game ended, Jenna and I sat on the
curb by the gym, waiting for Evan to get out of the locker room.
He's a Senior, just like Ryan, and is on the football team too.
After every win, the entire football team and cheer leading squad always
goes to Applebee's to celebrate. Evan was bringing us, so we had to wait for
him to get out of his football gear. As we sat there, Ryan walked out of the
locker room and passed us. He glanced at me and we made eye contact for the
first time since school had started. I just stared at him with a hurt look on my
face, and he looked away quickly. Katie ran up to him and congratulated him
on the touchdown and the win, kissing him passionately. He kissed her back,
took her hand, and they walked to his car together. He glanced back once at
me, but I was looking down so he turned away quickly. It took everything I had
not to break down right then and there.
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