Ok Witty Girls! I know its not pretty, but please read!
 

Okay. So My ex-boyfriend and I broke up a few weeks ago. At first I was getting better, but then it was all getting worse. Everything around me was getting harder. Kyle (my ex.) has hurt me one too many times. i still have really strong feelings for him, I'd take him back in a heart beat. On Saturday the 3rd, my friend Matt set me up and had Kyle meet me at the park. The closer he got the harder my heart pounded, literally, i thought it would burst out of my chest. We hung out and had a really good time. We went back to his house and he made me feel so much better. But here's a twist. He picked me up and put me on his lap. He said he missed me, then planted a kiss on my lips. We started kissing. I was so confused, he'd made me believe he didn't have the same feelings for me as I did for him.
                      The next day we got into an argument. I said that he never cared or loved me, i didn't mean it and I didn't know what I was saying. I mean really, i was bawling my eyes out. So he didn't answer after that. The rest of the day I cried and cried, but I also thought about letting him go. So I sent him this text: (this is the whole conversation)

Me: I've been thinking about it all day. And I'm done getting hurt. I'm done chasing you. You've caused me so much pain, more pain than I can take. If you knew you wanted me, you'd have me. but what you're doing to me, leading me on and getting my hopes up is wrong. Because right after you throw me down. If you wanted to be with me you'd be here right now. I'm willing to be friends, but I don't think I'd be ready for it. i need to be able to think about all our wonderful times and smile instead of cry and wonder what it'd be like if we were together now. i still do care about you, and there will always be a part of me that has feelings for you, but I can't keep chasing you. I"m only hurting myself doing so. you are a huge part of my life, but if you still don't have the strong feelings that i have for you it won't work. You really made me believe you didn't want me. Then you kissed me yesterday and I got so confused. You also confused yourself because you brought up the small feelings you have left when you didn't want to be more than friends. So now it's up to you whether you want to be friends or not. or if you want to be with me. But I'm not chasing you, you can come for me if you really want me.

Him: Mhk.

What I'm thinking: Oh. My. God.

Me: Wow, Right there you really showed me how much you care.

Him: What you expect to have an answer in 5 minutes! If this were on you you'd take forever! And ya know what? We can't be friends. We will do nothing but complain and blame each other for our problems.

Me: I was trying to reach out to you, but I guess I couldn't. I expected more from you.

Him: I didn't expect this from you. I'd love to be friends but I don't see it working if you talk to me like this. Guess we can try again in like a month or two, but its not workin out.

Me: I don't understand where you're coming from when you say you didn't expect this from me. I'm honestly just trying to save myself some pain, and there's nothing wrong with that.


                For all the people still reading, thank you. i know its long. Comment you're opinions please!!