My mom has cancer.....
I just found out like a week ago.. She needs to have her left kidney removed or else she'll die....
The doctors said that the NUMBER 1 cause for this cancer is smoking.... she's been a smoker for atleast 30+ years..
My parents have been divorced for about 3 years now and she's already re-married.... I was soo heart broken that I didn't attend the wedding... I should have....
and for the first time in about a year my depression is rearing it's ugly head in this mess... I sat in the bathroom last night for about 20 minutes just staring at my razor.... thank god I ended up throwing it out..
I haven't ever really been super close to my mom, it's really just been my dad and I..
I'm really scared and I don't want her to die, they said her prognosis is very good and that she should do fine through the surgery. But I'm still scared out of my f**king mind! she goes in for surgery on August 24th.. and whenever I see her she looks like she's in soo much pain! I can't stand it! I love my mom and I don't want anything bad to happen to her...
She's trying so hard to quit smoking.. I can only imagine how difficult this is for her...
I don't want favs I just want people to keep my mom in their prayers...


and please DON'T SMOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!