~waiting~
i hate when you are waiting for someone to text you and you just want to sit and stare at the phone but you resist. you turn it over or push it away so you cant see it. you loose your mind in the waiting . and every time your phone goes off, you look quick and hope its them even though you know it wont be, and it isn't. its not the person who inflicts pain on you but yet you cant seem to stay away, no, its someone who is always there for you and you just want them to leave because you want the pain. you want to talk to him no matter what, even if it takes pain. i want the pain, i want to talk to him. but the pain wont come, so i continue to wait.