the fear of love- 
i dont understand how in an instant i can be right back where i used to be, sitting here in the same place where i was only a few months ago, and i cant stand it. it scares me. what if i cant leave this time? what if im stuck like this? stuck in this place where all i can think about is how all life does is go wrong. all that i ever feel is pain. i think i know love but its not really love that im feeling, its pain and fear.. fear that this "love" will cause more pain. i fear that it will cause more harm than good. so i sit quiet and listen and dont say a word. too afraid to ever tell how i feel because im afraid that the day when i open my mouth is the day when the pain escalates and becomes unbearable.