Forever Is a Long Time..
The cool air blows through my hair and whips it across my face. Chills start to tingle up my spine, causing me to shiver a little. I shift myself under the tall oak tree in my backyard. The sun is setting and tomorrow is the first day of junior year. I'm soaking in the rest of summer, trying to grasp how fast it went by. The sunset is beautiful. Colors of purple, blue, pink, and yellow cause my eyes to fall into a trance. I start to relax, melting into the heart of the tree. I don't want to go back. I just wish everything would stop, that I could just freeze this moment forever and have it stay like this. I could just sit here for hours to ask the question, is everything here make believe? But, I know the world isn't just going to stop for me. I changed this summer, a lot. Physically and emotionally. In sophomore year I use to be the freaky nerd girl that had glasses, acne, a terrible sense of style, was a little on the heavier side, and had no voice. I was tired of being passed in the halls and ignored, being told that I didn't have a choice in of what I wanted to do in my life. I wanted to change all of that, and summer was when all of this happened. I have transformed, completely. I look nothing like before. I should be ecstatic, but I'm not. Something has got me holding onto nothing...