Haylie;
"Here you
go," Dr. Tirovolas smiled down at me, handing me the
prescription slip. "just have your mother drop by a drug
store and get that for you and you should be fine." He
sat back, folding his arms against his lap. "I
didn't really realize that it was this serious."
I shook my head, smiling. "I told you, Dr.
Tirovolas." I compromised for about the fourth time
during this appointment. "I honestly don't need
it." I beckoned, trying to push the slip towards
him.
"We wouldn't want to be taking any chances now would
we?" He creased his forehead, actually full of worry but
relief. "And legally, it's required of me to do
so..." He muttered underneath his breath, relaxing
further into his cushioned, leather seat.
"No, we wouldn't." I answered, grabbing the
slip and heading out the door as he hurried me into the outer
office where his secretary was smiling up at me, waiting for
my response.
"Put me in for two months from now." I
smiled.
I smiled, reminiscing the few milestones in my
life that have happened since my last psychiatric
appointment, and since, well - everything. I was in the back
of my mother's car, on the way to Justin's second
concert in Toronto this year. My eyes were staring intently
out the glass window, peering across the entire city, taking
in it's beautiful view of buildings and shining, bright
lights. My thoughts were focused on Justin and Justin only,
mainly on how big of a part he was in my life now, my new
life that was.
Daily, Justin had been bombarding my facebook,
my formspring, my twitter and my cell phone with messages,
the ones I previously used to work so hard for. Always
reminding me of how much I meant to him, always mentioning
how much he missed me, always bringing up the matter of how
excited he was to see me this month. It only meant that much
more, because even throughout the extremely busy schedule he
had that was filled with hectic interviews and hot photo
shoots, he still managed to find a part of the day to keep up
with me - whether he was fully awake or half asleep. Ever
since then, a huge improvement has been made throughout my
life in all aspects. With an inbox full of messages from an
international inspiration and a profile picture of yourself
and your hero smiling down at each other, how could you not
have been happy?
I slowly began eating two entire meals a day,
I began getting eight full hours of sleep each night and
found laughing and smiling that much easier. It may have not
been much to the average person, but I was in fact making
progress from the continous one meal a day and four hours of
sleep routine that I had gotten so used to during my
depressive days. Medication had some part in this progress,
but truely, I believed that it really was all Justin, and if
I ever did decide to flush my sleep aids and anti-depressants
down the toilet one day, I would do just as fine as long as I
had Justin by my side. After all, if it wasn't for him
reminding me to eat all the time and always sweetly singing
me to sleep over the phone, I wouldn't be where I was
right now.
He knew everything there was to know about me,
and he was the one person who stood by my side the entire
time and actually took action. He took the liberty of having
my trust to arrange family counseling for my family and I, to
make an agreement with my mother and have me see an extra
therapist, and to even take legal action and make sure that
all of my online accounts were being watched carefully since
#hatehaylie was a trending topic for a gruesome month on
twitter.
I had to
admit, if it were anyone but Justin arranging all of these
events into place, I definitely would have not let it go
through, seeing as how stubborn I am. But I placed my trust
in Justin, having him being the actual reason, and it was one
of the best decisions I've ever made in my entire life.
Because after all, look where I was and am now - I regained
my focus in school with a high average, my friends were
constantly asking to hang out ever since I started going out
again and at the end of the day I really could speak to my
mom about any problems that were bothering me. Not that I
ever needed to, Justin was always my first
choice.
Chapter
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