if you really knew me

you would know i fake my smile everyday
you would know i hate my dad
you would knowi think i'm hideous
you would know that my body is disgusting
you would know that i want to starve myself
you would know i laugh off the pain
you would know i hate most my friends because i know they talk about me
you would know my mom gets drunk all the time and is never home
you would know i listen to the same sad songs over and over again because it relates to me and i don't feel so alone
you would know i miss the old you
you would know i might love him
you would know i miss my old best friends
you would know i want to be a kid again when life was simple

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if you really knew me..
you would know i hate my life