i
know i don't have any friends.
i don't have any real friends.
my
three best friends are.. cool.
but,
they aren't it.
they
aren't the ones i would tell everything to.
yes, i do trust
them.. but.
they aren't the best friend i have ever had.
my old best friend is gone.
forever.
i will never hear her say the words
"she's my
best friend, and i love her."
come
out of her mouth again.
im
not that label anymore.
im not part of her life anymore.
im not part of her friendships anymore.
and
the thought of it..
it
just makes me sick.
