Untitled part 11
  I whipped the tears off my face & started the black Nissan rolling out of the driveway. I drove fast without thinking about much. That was fine to me , as long as I didnt think about Casey or Heath. I focused on breathing evenly awhile , annoyed with myself for knowing the way to Courtney's house a little to well. I let out a gentle sigh. Courtney used to be my best friend when I was ten. She changed of course. I kept myself busy brushing my hair out of my face & concentrating on gripping the wheel. I only had my learners permit. It was at these moments where I really missed Dad. He was always there , watching over me time to time to make sure I was alright. I wonder what he was doing , intertwining his fingers with his beautiful wife or taking his new children for ride through the park. Or possibly writing out a letter to me , posting pictures , his eyebrows furrowed close together in concentration while he wrote. I wonder if my brother ever though about this. I bit my lip in the though. I promised myself Id see him soon. I came back to reality for a second watching as a familiar house appeared down the street. I huge house with pillars that looked like it possibly came out of a Greek catalog was covered with party streamers & flashing lights, music blaring from the house. People were scattered all along the lawn. Everyone from my school , half passed out , half making out & half wrestling with each other to see who would get the next beer. I shook my head a little & parked the car across the crowded street. I looked down with embarrassment. I was wearing Casey's long lacrosse pants & a lacrosse jersey. My yellow flip flops sticking out. I grimaced looking outside at the scene. Everything was still wet from todays storm but it was now pretty sticky with humidity. I took in a sharp breath & opened the car door slowly , my hair bouncing in a pony tail , my eyes blank. I was warm now despite todays storm but I still didnt like the idea of being outside. Or the fact that my mom didnt even call to see if I was okay. I made my way to the door , getting some dirty looks. I rolled my eyes. I stuck out like a soar thumb in the crowed , everyone wearing some slutty dress or bathing suits. Courtney's house was still the same from last I remember , except for the out of control teenagers running around everywhere. I edged for the nearest keg knowing thats were I would find Heath. Heaths blondish hair popped out to me the most. There were a bunch of guys in a circle & girls dancing around them each looking like they were already becoming a certified stripped. Anger bubbled up in my but I just sunk back a little watching Heath for a moment , taking a cup of beer. I shrugged & took a sip & starting walking towards Heath again. "Hi.." I whispered through the blasting music. Heath turned around anger & confusion in his eyes. He snorted when he look at me , his hair ruffled , his eyes blood shot. Beer stunk from him. " Yeah whatever." Heath glared taking another swing of beer , watching the girls dance. I could only hear the sound of my blood pulsing in my ears. "It's time to go." I hissed motioning towards the door ignoring the evil stares from passing people. "Dont tell me what to do!" Heath screamed , standing up from off the floor to tower over me. For the first time I wondered if coming for him was the worst mistake of my life. I glared but tip toed back a little. Heath laughed coldly & went to go take another sip of beer. Before I could stop myself I knocked the can out of his hand with a loud thunk. Heath looked upset & confused at the same time. " I said were leaving now." I growled making each word distinct. I pulled Heath through the crowed before he could say anything.