Day 11 - A deceased person you wish you could talk to.
 

Dear GG,
     I just wrote you this huge letter. It took over an hour. I wrote all about the day that you died, and the day of your funeral. I was just about to sign it, and my internet explorer stopped working, and completely shut the website off. Before i could even save it. So maybe that's not what you wanted me to write about. I'll try this again..

     Well it's been exactly four years sense you died. August 19th, 2006. Today's August 19th, 2010. I miss you more than ever right now. I wish you were still here with us. I keep thinking about the last time i saw you. Me and Mom were standing in front of your casket, and she said "Give GG a kiss goodbye". I kissed you on your cheek, and then we went to the burial site, where you were put in the ground. I don't visit you a lot, because it hurts too much. But we drive by your grave all the time. I wave and blow you a kiss and tell you i miss you. I still have your favorite doll. The one with the big white and pink dress that was crocheted. It's right above my bed. Every time i look up, i can see the dress dangling off of the stand it's laying on. It's right above my Rosary beads. I'm balling my eyes out right now.  I miss you grams. I miss your hugs and your gentle touch and me sitting on your lap when i didn't feel good. It's two in the morning right now. And i'm already all puffy-eyed and have been crying sense one. How am i supposed to make it through the rest of the day? I'll be thinking about you all day today. You were, and still are, the strongest person i know. When i get old, i want to be JUST like you.

You'll always be in my heart. I love you so much.
I miss you so much it hurts to breathe.
I'll see you in heaven soon enough.
Have a beer in a glass for me tonight, okay?

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo,
Danielle.