"so who was your first
love?"
I couldn't make eye contact with her, "why do you want to
know?"
we weren't what you would call "close" friends. but we
talked every now and then.
"just curious." she grinned. her teeth were perfect.
"is he in this room?"
I looked down to the ground, "yes." I said softly.
she stood up from her chair and looked around the room, making note
of all the guys in the same room as us, "can I have a
hint?"
I laughed, "no."
"can I guess?"
"go ahead, knock yourself out." I smiled at the thought
of her knocking herself out.
"will you tell me if I'm right?" I stopped smiling,
"you'll know when you say his name."
she looked at me confused but shrugged, "Daniel?"
"no."
"Matt? Micah?"
"no and no."
she said about ten more names, then his came up.
"Eric?"
I shuddered and didn't say anything.
"oh my gosh ! Eric was your fir--." I cut her off,
"SHHH !" I put my hands over her mouth and everyone in
the band room looked at us. "uh ... hey ?" I heard a few
laughs, and Eric was staring me straight in the eyes. He looked
pained.
I looked at Shalena, "shh , keep your mouth shut."
"so.. you really loved him? and meant it?"
I sighed heavily, "Shalena ... I was so in
love
with him. I would've married that boy with a ring pop in a
heartbeat."
"do you still love him?"
she tried to make eye contact with me, but I stared at the
ground.
"no." I had to force the words through my teeth. "I
can't."
"and why not?" she asked so many
questions. "because it hurts too much."
