You broke my h e a r t the day
you broke up with me.
You say we can be friends but you dont even talk to me.
How am i supposed to deal with this? Do you expect me to just
get over you after everything that has happened between us? I
always went to you when i was having a bad day. Well now, you're
the reason for my bad days. I've gone to all of my friends about this,
they probably think that I'm obsessive. The ones that know you don't
understand why you're acting like a jerk and the ones that don't know
you think that youre horrible because I told them everything. But really,
you aren't horrible, you're far from it. |[Truth is, no matter how you treat
me, I'm still going to love you.]| You have given me every single reason to
hate you, but I can't. Everyone says that I just need to get over you but
I can't, and I don't want to. I don't want to ever forget about you because
for a long time, you made me happier then I've ever been before and I don't
regret ever being with you. I wish I could go back to those times when we
were together because thats when my life was perfect. It was a m a z i n g
beyond belief and I want you back. I can't go on like this. I need to talk to
you every day for me to be even close to okay. You think I'm absolutely fine.
You've even been told that I'm not okay and that I just want you to think that
I'm fine. I do want you to think that becasue I want you to be happy. I don't
want to hold you back. I guess that's how I know that I really love you. No
matter what you do, I dont want you to be hurt. I want you to live your life
so that it's the best. So, you're leaving the school I go to and this is what it's
coming down to. I'm going to miss you so much. I'm not sure how I'm even
going to s u r v i v e without you. It's like, you've torn me apart to the point
where I can barely think straight but I still don't want to forget you. You
said it wouldn't have been fair to me since you're leaving because we wouldn't
have ever seen each other. But no, what's not fair to me is breaking my heart
and not letting me even try to change your mind. I can't go on like this. Not
knowing what you were thinking when you ended it all. Do you regret it? Do
you miss me? Did you really love me, or was that just a lie too? Do you care
anymore? I want to ask you all of this, but you don't want to talk about it.
This is all killing me. I need you to live and you dont even want me.
11 faves · 1 comments · Jun 26, 2010 12:27am
9 years ago
i'm going through practically the same thing except he's not leaving my school hes just in a different grade.. "/ i miss him beyond belief and i know how you feel ): sorryyy ♥