The other day my friend asked me why
I'm so competitive . I
told her it
was
because I
love the feeling of winning . It
is true - being number one is great but I
believe I'm over - competitive because I
feel like I need to prove myself to every
one. People look at me and
think: “she
can't.” So I feel like i need to show
them
that I can . Being
competitive probably
won't change but the way people
look
at me but the
very tiny chance
that
someone will stop thinking of me as
"a
twig they could snap and get out of the
way " brings a determination
out from
inside me that I don't think
I could , or
would want to change. And it scares
me.
sort of a vent.
so sick of being labled.
