I think
i am done with you.
And all this false hope ive been riding on for so long.
Because it seems that every time i trust somebody i care about so much, and they
become the only thing i think about, i end up crying myself to
sleep and thinking why? Why me?
Why do you have to keep leading me on then breaking my
heart?
It's not fair. To keep saying that you love me so much, and then
i become second best.
So just stop. Stop calling me, stop texting me, stop
thinking that i'll be the one you come to when your hurt and
broken down.
Because yeah, i wouldve happily been that
person for you a
couple of months ago. I would've stayed up all night with you
talking and laughing. But not anymore.
So at night, i
hope you think about how you treated me.
How i was only there when you needed,and sometimes, brushed to
the side like i didnt matter at all.
Because you couldnt tell me
everything. Because i didnt know it all. Whose fault was
that?
I thought you were my best friend. I thought if i could
tell you
everything, and be open with you, tell you all my secrets, then
you could to.
But you
didnt.
Why didnt
you come to me at the end?
When you were dealing with all this crap?
I couldve helped you. I couldve been there.
But you kept pushing me away.
And i can't deal with your 'I need to talk to yous.'
Not anymore. I wont fall for it this time. I kept thinking that
maybe this time it'd be better.
Maybe we could go back to before. But it wont. It'll
never
be the same.
And i'll never trust anyone the same way i trusted you. It'll
never be the same with anyone.
Because you were the only one.
I'll never be able to share my life with anyone the
same
way again.
Because you knew it all.
And i can't go through the broken hearts, midnight fights, late
night talks, the best hugs ever, the deep and meaningfuls, the
everything.
Because now i have to deal with a broken heart.
Mine.
All mine :)
Had to do an extreme vent :)
No Jocking please :)
xx