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He looked at me like he was about to devour me.
And just once I wish those eyes were filled with love and not lu$t.
Just once I want to feel like the things that I want are not a burden.
Just once, I would like to feel like I am not a burden.
My needs shouldn't be something I have to bury.
I just want love.
And yet the only time I feel loved.
And seen, is when I'm not myself.
Who am I anymore?
I've not been myself for most of my life.
For the sake of being loved.
Is it truly what I seek?
I do just want love.
I don't want to be a burden.
But it's too late now.
I am the thing that they take and take and take.
I am no longer me.
My needs are a burden, met with sadness and annoyance.
I am just figment of what I wish to be.
Just take me, everyone does.
It's the only time I'm seen.
I can't.
Make it stop.
This is all I'll ever be.
Hold me, oh god I just wish you'd hold me.
The only time I feel loved, is when I'm not myself.
Take me.
What's the point of fighting anymore.
Maybe you'll love me when I'm longer me.
And I will simply cease to exist.
For the desire to be seen and loved.
Goodbye.
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