Sometimes I don't want to wake up, sometimes I wouldn't mind the end coming. Sometimes it's hard to do anything, and I let myself get trapped in a spiral of negative thoughts. Sometimes it's hard. Sometimes I wish I didn't wake up. Sometimes I just sleep for as long as I can. Sometimes I want to cry for some reason. There's always the same and new reason. But I've found that endorphins help. Not ones from food, but exercise. My personality takes things to extremes so I'm trying to increase my calories, don't want to develop anymore problems. Sometimes seeing the scale drop is my only happiness, that's a problem in itself.