shescrazy19 posted a quote
January 3, 2017 4:42pm UTC
Its only confusing because I love the both of you. He never treated me right so you know that statement was bullshit itself. I didnt want to start a war or have an arguement with you; but I thought you needed to know you arent completely erased. To leave him in that moment would have been a complete disaster because he was drunk; always drunk. I guess i signed up for this road so clearly here I am still trying to pursue it. You &' I both know after all of this we could never be how we once were. Im not trying to bullshit you or try and do anything with these posts; just to write to you 'cause I miss you I suppose.
seafoam* posted a quote
January 3, 2017 7:05pm UTC
A little darkness, in itself, at the time, is nothing. You think no more about it and you go on. But I know what darkness is, it accumulates, thickens, then suddenly bursts and drowns everything.
seafoam* posted a quote
January 3, 2017 7:43pm UTC
“To all the devils, l.usts, passions, greeds, envies, loves, hates, strange desires, enemies ghostly and real, the army of memories, with which I do battle — may they never give me peace.”
seafoam* posted a quote
January 3, 2017 8:08pm UTC
THE ANXIETY INHERENT IN AIR If you must know, this is what I'm scared of. I'm scared that everyone else is more who they are than I am who I am. I think everyone else just looks at the things they feel or think and says “Of course this is what I feel or think, this is who I am.” But I am never sure of what I feel or think. And I'm scared because I'm holding all the things I could feel or think on a boat that the slightest breeze could tip over and if that happens, I will fall with all of it into the water. I am scared I will be left with nothing and no idea who I am. I am scared of the wind.
seafoam* posted a quote
January 3, 2017 8:42pm UTC
But love's like a needle on a record, taking parts of you away as it draws sharply and constantly across the heart, in slow descending circles, just to hear a song hidden in the scratches one more time.
seafoam* posted a quote
January 3, 2017 8:53pm UTC
You drive too slowly down the streets where you once lived but you roll up your windows when you stop at the lights (just in case any of the ghosts try to get in).
Miluiel* posted a quote
January 3, 2017 8:54pm UTC
five things i learned about myself last year 1. i am not impatient. i am restless. 2. i'm not a people pleaser. 3. practicing reckless optimism is not nearly as hard as knowing when to let it go. 4. the third cigarette is the hardest to light. 5. i can cry. i just have to let myself.
shescrazy19 posted a quote
January 3, 2017 10:56pm UTC
Exactly what I have? Whats that even mean? My humor? My belief in fairytales? What exactly is so desirable? I need you to understand that this life isnt what it was supposed to be. Nothing in the lines of what we had planned. Maybe 'cause its not us against the world anymore. I was going to just type out a letter but would it even matter? Does anything matter? Thanks about school; got hired at a different place and making bank. Manager at where I've been for almost two years; new white car. Isnt it supposed to feel better in my chest than whats stirring in there? This whole time I've been hoping you found love. That you found a new wonderwoman. That hurts saying that because I dont think I could handle you being someone elses superman; but I hope you find it. It hurts that youre swearing in. Thats a punch to every part of me. But if you think thats what you need, then you better know I'll still be in your corner cheering you on as best as I can. Just do me a favor, no matter how much it hurts; please still write to me. Dont have to show it to me, just dont give up on that.
And how do you think I'm handling you in this new fairytale? I know it's a chevy. I've seen you around town. It's a small town. Write to you? Why would I possibly write to you?? what's there to say?. I don't want to hear bits and pieces of how our lifes going. I'd rather be in it.
me_just_me posted a quote
January 3, 2017 11:43pm UTC
I used to look into your green eyes and see someone I truly love. Those moments were moments of bliss, and I would give anything to go back in time and feel that again. I know I made a mistake. I know this is my fault. I don't get why we can't just try to work things out. Things don't have to be the same, they could be better than before. All I'm asking for is another chance. Sometimes in life there are second chances, and sometimes there aren't. But if I was lucky enough to get another chance I wouldn't ruin it this time. I wouldn't hurt you again. I know you really loved me because you cried as we hugged goodbye for the last time. I know deep down you care, and I always will too. No matter how much time passes between us I think there will always be something there. You really were a part of me, and somehow you always will be.