The foundation of our unstable relationship was built upon songs. In the beginning, before the feelings developed, we would send each other cutesy cheesy songs about friendship and ‘other halves’, best friends. When the romantic feelings became known on both sides, deeper love songs were often shared to convey our promises and hopes to one another. I distinctly remember certain ones, ones that I now can't listen to without feeling unwelcome nostalgia or chagrin at all the bittersweet memories. When things started going south, our fights getting uglier and more frequent, your manipulation and lies becoming less subtle, you sometimes recommended songs with sad, pain-filled lyrics under the nonchalant guise of enjoying them and thinking I would too. In hearing them, I heard everything you were either too afraid or too passive aggressive to say yourself. Perhaps after knowing me for two years you'd deducted I was intuitive enough to grasp your unspoken intentions myself, perhaps you really did think I was gullible enough to accept your casual, tired-out explanation that ‘it's a good song’. Regardless, you always had a purpose and an outcome in mind. Everything you ever did was calculated and strategic; everything you ever gave me or told me contained an underlying message. You weren't one to do things just because, but because–. Every conversation, look, touch, moment was a riddle, and this time the answer was agonizingly clear-cut.
But you weren't the only one with cruel tricks and concealed agendas up your sleeve. Our relationship even closed with a song, played by chance on the radio when I was on the way to school that morning you decided to walk away from me and out of my life. Its words were hauntingly allusive, and now I see that they foreshadowed what was to come minutes later... only this time it wasn't delivered through you. You see, The universe was mocking us from start to end, reminding us that our love would never be as harmonious and poetic as the songs we based it on.
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