2015 was probably the most eventful, emotional, and impactful year of my life. i am 100% positive that i have changed drastically since january 1st of this year. this was the year of trying new things and stepping out of my comfort zone more than ever, going out with the old and in with the new, taking risks and beginning to find myself. there were tears of joy, laughter, happiness -- this year holds some of the best things that have ever happened to me. there were also tears of pain, sadness, and disappointment. but regardless of the highs and lows, i am thankful for it. i have learned quite a lot this year, but these things stuck out to me the most:
1. it is much much better to be all alone than to be surrounded by people who don't respect you, who make you feel bad about yourself, and who prevent you from growing as a person. stay as far away from them as you can, they aren't helping.
2. never, EVER, give up on your dreams, no matter what people tell you, no matter how impossible they may look. you have to stay positive and believe they will happen. some of the things i thought about every day and wanted so badly but couldn't get have happened this year because i had faith that deep down that they would, and eventually they happened. i have bigger goals now that many have laughed at and others thought were insane, but i'm thrilled for the day i can prove them wrong. optimism is key, and it will take you a very long way.
3. do NOT feel bad about taking your life at your own pace. just because everyone else seems to have their future planned out, because they have a job and goals that differ from yours does not mean you are doing life "the wrong way". do what you need to do to make yourself happy and anyone who is against that is a sack of shít who needs to mind their own business and focus on themselves.
i'm ready for 2016 now, for something new. i hope that i'm able to find and have all that i want in the new year, and i hope you all will too.