my sister is such a s.hitty human being. like I'm not even going to dive into things relating to me, I'm just going to dive into the thing that bugs me right now. okay, march 20th, my friend (my sister's "best friend") lost her baby girl. she was three months old. she also lost her job because the people at work were making fun of her for her daughter dying. for a week after the funeral, she kept asking my sister to hangout, because her fiance was spending time with his dad who was flown in from Florida for the funeral, and she didn't want to be in the house where her baby died all alone. my sister worked some days, but on the day off that her best friend specifically asked about, she lied and said she had to work. all so she could hangout with a boy, who is her boyfriend now but wasn't at the time (and she was with another guy to boot.) she blew off her best friend, who had lost her three month old baby, and was clearly having a rough time (she still has the last diaper she ever wore in a little shrine beside the bed), to go cheat on her boyfriend (if you count kissing as cheating) in a taco bell parking lot. to add things in, my sister's boyfriend is an army medic. he had to go to new york for 2 weeks for training or something. my sister's friend said she would be there for her for the 2 weeks. my sister would always say she was working. sweet gesture, right? well that wasn't good enough for my sister, no. she still made passive agressive facebook statuses about her friend, because when they hangout my sister always has to drive to her house because she has two other daughters and she was un-employed with a gas hog for a car. the friend called her out on it and my sister got defensive and ended up being so immature and blocking her and all of that high school crap. and then my sister played the "you weren't there for me when Christian was away and you said you would" and my friend offered, almost everyday. so one day I go real fed up with the trash talking and was like "coming from someone that blew her off to go cheat on Jesse when her f.ucking baby died." and her only defense was "I was there when she had the girls. I was the only that has been there for the girls. I've been there since they were born" and I was like "yeah, but you weren't there when one of them died and she needed you." and still her only response to that is "shut up." like, am I the only one that thinks she's a s.hit person?
When you are casually scrolling through a page on Tumblr and you find your own personal writing with actual notes from where people have reblogged and shared it a ton of times Really? I just saw this...I had no idea. People actually shared my own words Like, in a way I am flattered because obviously my writing is good enough to be shared or to inspire people but still You may relate to my opinions and words, but you are not the one saying it and writing it I have a voice and I have a name and my words are my own unless you write too, you will not understand
When you cry when you are alone and you really hurt and you just cannot sleep and you cannot dream and find some peace and people just have no clue if you do not constantly break down in front of people or talk to people about it they just assume you are okay they have no idea
You cannot make anyone notice you If people want to look past you, they will but I will say if people notice you, without you even trying you are obviously interesting or appealing to them in some way and that feels nice
Someone is always by my side My cat She basically follows me everywhere She sleeps by my side at night She never leaves me When I leave, she gets sad and she is happy whenever I come home I would say I am her favorite human It is really adorable