Ok, so that's me.
I can't fit in. I'm just a weirdo that can't get along with normal kids,or can't fit in a group.
Since I was young, a weight much more than I should. My mum alaways treated me like I was a doll, she liked dressing me and making my hair,she wanted me to have long hair in order I can make them braids. In kindergarden, I had a lot of friends but I was always "the follower".
In primary school kids used to make fun of me because of my appearance and my good grades. I was always a "dork" but that's the only thing I'm good at. I remember me crying and people always called me oversensitive or crying baby. When a was a bit older my girl friends didn't want me,they often excluded me, so I went on a diet with the supervision of a doctor and this helped me lose 12 kg. I suddenly felt confident and that anything could stand in front of me, but I gained all the weight I lost in no time. After I graduated primary school I fel a big relief because I wouldn't see "my friends" again. That summer I promised to myself that everything would be better at high school,so I went on a diet in order to be "perfect" for school. And I succeded. I lost 14 kg and I was really proud for myself. But high school wasn't as peachy as I thought it would be. To be perfectly honest, I don't think I'll ever fit with the girls. I don't care for my appearance, I always wear my sweatpants,a plain t-shirt and my hair are constantly on a ponytail. I never liked "romantic" movies or "girly" programs like "Pretty little liars" or "twillight". In fact,I hate them. I always liked pokemon, action and horror films and other programs that were considered as boyish. But I don't fit with the boys too. Both girls and boys make fun of me because I suck at sports, thay were laughing at my clothes and they called me a dork because my grades are high. I feel really disappointed and I cry myself to sleep nearly every night. I feel terrible and as result of it I gained all the weight I lost at summer. The summer I didn't went out of home for two months and I've thought to self-harm several times. And here I am,going through a terrible time at school with people talking behind my back,with my mum forcing me to act a little ore girly, me feeling terrible and disgusted of myself and recently have started a diet. I've lost 7 kg so far. May God be with me.
*I know I haven't that terrible story, I'm not the girl that has gone through really awful things but trust me, I have felt a lot of emotional pain. I taken a lot of hate and society always treated me like trash.
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