I'm not strong. Everyday I wish I would have done that to myself so I wouldn't have to go through another day. No more pain, no more tears, no more nothing because I wouldn't be in her life. She would feel sorry for what she did. For once I wouldn't have to say "sorry" or that I was the one who did the wrong thing. This is all her. Does she even know that she is the one who makes me want to end my life? No. All she cares about is my grades. Not once has she ever asked how I'm feeling. If I even get hurt she always thinks im faking. She won't even ask if I'm ok either. I don't understand why she thinks i'm always okay. Because i'm not. I'm torn. And I'm being torn into pieces. I don't even want to live with her or them anymore because I actually feel nothing but anger towards them. But the worst is I can never tell or go to anyone because that just makes everything worse. There's not one person I can go to that would actually give me comfort in my life. Right now the only thought that comforts me is the place way up there in the sky.