The Letter. THE CHANGE. The Lie.
Chapter 36:
*Mia's POV*
After I walked out of the room I went and sat in one of the chairs in the hallway. I didn't mind being alone, it gave me time to think. Which was something I needed to do.
Seeing Tessa and Milo only made the fact that Niall cheated on me that much realer. I mean I knew he had but part of me always hoped that maybe this was just one giant dream. That part was gone now. Another thing seeing them did was reopen the closing wound.
Now that I know what Tessa looks like I feel a million times worse. Even though she looked tired and worn down you could tell at one time she was gorgeous. She was tall and thin, but not grossly. She had her long blonde hair, and though her face was long she had great facial features. Next to her I feel so... plain.
I put my head in my hands. When was this nightmare going to end? Never, the back of my mind reminded me. Niall has a son now, which is going to be a constant reminder of what happened. I smiled, now a happy smile, but a sad smile. The smile you make when you know life has once again defeated you, gotten the best of you.
I thought of the promise I made my self on the drive over: not to get attached to Milo, not to get close to him. At the time it seemed like it was going to be easy enough, but after seeing him, and seeing how much he looked like Niall... it was going to be hard. And that started the internal struggle.
He doesn't deserve to be punished for Niall's mistake.
But he will always remind you of how Niall hurt you.
He is innocent, was that not obvious when you held him?
But he will bring you nothing but misery and pain.
I shook my head, trying to clear my mind. I sat there for a while longer, I don't really know how long I was out in the hall, it was kind of a blur. But eventually Niall walked out of the door. I looked up, and saw his face, so full of concern and worry and sorrow, and that caused me to be concerned. He turned and looked at me; I could tell he was deep in thought about something by the way his eyes were clouded over.
"Is everything okay?" I finally asked. My words broke him out of his trance.
"No," was all he said. We walked out of the hospital and to his car in silence. I started to become really worried about what happened while I was in the hallway. We got to the car and climbed in.
Niall didn't start the car though, he just sat there and stared at the steering wheel before resting his head in his hands. After a moment I heard him mumble something but I couldn't make out the words.
"What?" I asked quietly.
"She's dying, Tessa is dying." he began to tell me what happened. Everything to what is wrong with Tessa to promising to give Milo a good life to having to bring him home that week. I couldn't believe what I was hearing, I couldn't believe any of this was really happening. Niall didn't cry the entire time he was talking, but once he finished he started crying uncontrollably.
"Niall its going to be okay, its all going to work out," I tried to comfort him but I didn't really believe what I was saying.
"No its not. I always thought Milo was at least going to have a mother to look after him, I always thought Tessa was going to be there to take care of him. Especially while I was gone on tour. I mean I always planned on taking care of him and being apart of his life but now... now I'm going to be the only parental figure in his life." I didn't know what to say. So I didn't anything for a second. I just sat there, still trying to absorb everything that was happening.
"I was already terrified I was going to screw up being a father, but now... now its different," Niall confessed.
This time I knew exactly what to say. "Niall look at me. Look at me." His head slowly turned. His cheeks were red and wet from all of his tears. "You are going to make a great dad. I have always known that you would, but after today watching you take care of him there is no doubt in my mind that you are going to be a great father."
A small weak smile crossed Niall's face. We sat there in the car for a few more minutes talking, mostly about how Niall is going to have to bring Milo home and everything we were going to have to do. Even though I still didn't want to get close to Milo I knew I was going to have to help Niall through this. We were talking about different ideas on what to do while they were on tour when suddenly I thought of something.
"Niall, are you going to tell your fans?" He froze for a second, honestly I think he forgot about that.
"I'm going to have too." he thought for a moment before continuing. "I'm going to have to before it gets out to the press. Its a miracle they don't know already."
"I was thinking the same thing. Directioners seem to know everything seconds after it happens," I laughed slightly. In the back of my mind I couldn't help but think they didn't know about Niall cheating but pushed it even further back.
"I need to talk to the lads," he groaned, rubbing his eyes with the palms of his hands. I nodded but didn't say anything. He quickly pulled out his phone and quickly texted all of them. After putting his phone in the central dock he started the car and we began to drive away from the hospital.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hey guys! I'd love to get some feedback on the story from you guys! I want to make sure you guys enjoy it so let me know! I will not be posting another chapter tonight, I'm too lazy and my head hurts. Hopefully tomorrow! Thank you so much for reading! Love you all!
Rajsonkar
KarlaKutsWithKrayons
loserbitch*
DayDreamer21
AnonGirl
blackangel39
yolo143youonlyliveonce
OnceUponAStory
wanderer*
stephaniesirens
kayznd
sarahmarie168
AwkwardnessIsAwesome*
heythereitskristy
confessions_of_the_mentally_insane
the_story_left_untold
blue_bubbles1