And I have the worst nightmares... I used to live the typical happy life until my uncle went missing... I had to look in ponds, rivers, ditches, etc and I stopped and left it to the police because I couldn't even imagine finding him that way. I'm in no way trying to gain sympathy, I just hurt inside.. terribly. Format by Sandrasaurus
I forgot my homework the first day, I won't say but I know why. I barely eat and hadn't that day. I'm tired all the time, I'm weak I can barely stand sometimes, I get dizzy with any sudden moves or standing up, I was trying to hide this all. And to top it off my memory is getting worse, but I guess it's the price I pay.
Sometimes I wish I was one of those pretty girls with fast metabolisms who wakes up looking great and never has to worry about their weight. One of those girls who's good at everything they do and does well in school. One of those girls who all the boys like and all the girls want to be like, who no one ever thinks is weird. But I'm not. And I've accepted that. You should too, because I'm not changing.
Last night was his funeral The last night I'd ever see that young face again. The last night I'd actually be able to look at the face that held so many smiles. Talk to him and not a picture. It was so hard not to cry but I finally gave up and let the tears come. I know you would want us all to be happy that you're in a better place. You wouldn't want us crying. I know you'd make everyone in this small town laugh and smile again but you can't. I'm sitting here with tears staining my cheeks Wishing I could of said goodbye. Even though I had never met your mother before last night, I gave her a hug for you<3 Rest In Paridise Danyel We all miss you April 2, 1997 - August 25,2012
I keep drawing lines on my wrist and stomach with my knife I just can't press down hard enough I want to scream i can't stop crying My stomach hurts so bad I keep pushing everyone away I can't breathe... I just want to give up ~vent sorry~