» I'm so scared, and I don't want to do this alone. i have this empty feeling coming over me, like i'm going to be sick. i can't sleep, and i know i need to get up for school in a few hours. i can't even cry. i'm just shaking, i'm just waiting it out until i have to go to hell, and come home and sleep, and go back to hell again. i'm so fùcking tired of this. i'm so afraid. i don't want to live. i just want to be away from here, away from this. «