Day 20: The one who broke your heart the hardest
Dear John,
I love you... so much. Still, I always will. You lead me on, like crazy. I liked you a lot; and I thought you liked me back. So did EVERYONE else. Then that day you told me you liked Lauren, not me. Those things you said ANYONE would have thought you liked me. How could you lead me on like that? As soon as you said ".....Lauren...." My heart... sank. It fell into my stomach and my acid destroyed it minute by minute. You really like her, don't you? That night... I cried myself to sleep. I wanted to kill myself then, but I knew that it wasn't worth it. Then I asked you out, and you said no... but you said you "wanted to." Well John, if you WANTED to then we wouldn't be "just friends." We'd be John&Sydney<3 But we aren't. We're John and Sydney, friends. You took my heart and ripped it to SHREDS, just so you know. But we're still best friends, and I still love you, a lot. I think I do at least. I can't feel it... I've taught myself to become numb because otherwise, I can't deal with the pain.