#4
T o t h e o n e I l o v e ,
the boy I love: You're breaking my heart. I can literally feel it
crack. I know you're changing, I can see it with my own eyes.
I'm happy. I'm glad you're trying harder, I'm glad I have some
meaning in your life. But I'm afraid you'll relapse into the person
that just kept breaking my heart no matter what you did or didn't
do. I don't want that. It hurts me, but I'm afraid if I leave, the
pain of not being with you will be g r e a t e r than the pain of being
with you, and I don't know what to do. I love you with my
whole being, and you make me happier than anyone but you hurt me more than them too...
I don't know what to do..