It is to the credit of human nature, that, except where its selfishness is brought into play, it loves more readily than it hates. Hatred, by a gradual and quiet process, will even be transformed to love, unless the change be impeded by a continually new irritation of the original feeling of hostility. ~Nathaniel Hawthorne, The Scarlet Letter
I'm slowly starting to realize that i'm going to be alright without you, that i dont need you in my life, yeah, sometimes i still cry, and some days it still hurts inside, you said it was over and it hurt to leave without any closure, but now i know, that without by my side, i'll still be fine. [just.alright] X|3.
&+.can you tell me why i feel so alone? can you tell me why my heart is cruel &+ cold? No? Yeah, didn't think so. So stop trying to fix me, you'll never understand, dont try to help me i know, just like all others, you'll get tired of me and leave. X|3.
so im not perfect, &+ i tend to get caught up in the moment a lot; i cry too much, and my heart always gets broken; sometimes i talk to much, sometimes not enough; there are days when i really still miss you and others when i could care less; i over contemplate things, but sometimes i dont think at all; somedays im really hyper [happy] &+ others im real hurt inside, but i know through it all, im going to be fine.
you said together, we'd make it through, but now, where the hell are you? I'm so lost &+ i cannot seem to find you. Tell how you can love me, and just leave me. Tell me how im stuck on you, but you haven't even stumbled. Yeah, dont give me your lame excuses, and your apology is not accepted. Dont come back, I dont care what you do, I no longer need you. X|3.