The time that I've wasted is my biggest regret,
Spent in these places I will never forget.
Just sitting and thinking about the things I've done,
the crying, the laughing, the hurt and the fun.
Now it's just me and my hard-driven guilt,
Behind the wall of emptiness I allowed to be built.
I'm trapped in my body just waiting to run,
back to my youth with it's laughter and fun.
But the chase is over and there's no place to hide,
Everything is gone, including my pride.
With reality suddenly right in my face,
I'm scared, alone, and stuck in this place.
Now memories of the past flash through my head,
and the pain is obvious by the tears that I shed.
I ask myself why? and where I went wrong.
I guess I was weak, when I should have been strong.
Living for the drugs, and the wings I had grown.
My feelings were lost afraid to be shown.
As I look at my past it's so easy to see,
The fear that I had, afraid to be me.
I'd pretend to be rugged, so fast and so cool,
when actually lost like a blinded fool.
I'm getting too old for this tiresome game,
of acting real hard with no sense of shame.
It's time that I change, and get on with my life,
fulfilling my dreams for a family, and to be a good wife.
What my future will hold I really don't know,
But the years that I've wasted are starting to show.
I just live for the day when I get a new start,
and the dreams I still hold deep in my heart.
I hope I can make it, I at least have to try,
because I'm heading toward death, and I don't want to die.
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