"Here you go," Dr. Tirovolas smiled down at me, handing me the prescription slip. "just have your mother drop by a drug store and get that for you and you should be fine." He sat back, folding his arms against his lap. "I didn't really realize that it was this serious."
I shook my head, smiling. "I told you, Dr. Tirovolas." I compromised for about the fourth time during this appointment. "I honestly don't need it." I beckoned, trying to push the slip towards him.
"We wouldn't want to be taking any chances now would we?" He creased his forehead, actually full of worry but relief. "And legally, it's required of me to do so..." He muttered underneath his breath, relaxing further into his cushioned, leather seat.
"No, we wouldn't." I answered, grabbing the slip and heading out the door as he hurried me into the outer office where his secretary was smiling up at me, waiting for my response.
"Put me in for two months from now." I smiled.
I smiled, reminiscing the few milestones in my life that have happened since my last psychiatric appointment, and since, well - everything. I was in the back of my mother's car, on the way to Justin's second concert in Toronto this year. My eyes were staring intently out the glass window, peering across the entire city, taking in it's beautiful view of buildings and shining, bright lights. My thoughts were focused on Justin and Justin only, mainly on how big of a part he was in my life now, my new life that was.
Daily, Justin had been bombarding my facebook, my formspring, my twitter and my cell phone with messages, the ones I previously used to work so hard for. Always reminding me of how much I meant to him, always mentioning how much he missed me, always bringing up the matter of how excited he was to see me this month. It only meant that much more, because even throughout the extremely busy schedule he had that was filled with hectic interviews and hot photo shoots, he still managed to find a part of the day to keep up with me - whether he was fully awake or half asleep. Ever since then, a huge improvement has been made throughout my life in all aspects. With an inbox full of messages from an international inspiration and a profile picture of yourself and your hero smiling down at each other, how could you not have been happy?
I slowly began eating two entire meals a day, I began getting eight full hours of sleep each night and found laughing and smiling that much easier. It may have not been much to the average person, but I was in fact making progress from the continous one meal a day and four hours of sleep routine that I had gotten so used to during my depressive days. Medication had some part in this progress, but truely, I believed that it really was all Justin, and if I ever did decide to flush my sleep aids and anti-depressants down the toilet one day, I would do just as fine as long as I had Justin by my side. After all, if it wasn't for him reminding me to eat all the time and always sweetly singing me to sleep over the phone, I wouldn't be where I was right now.
He knew everything there was to know about me, and he was the one person who stood by my side the entire time and actually took action. He took the liberty of having my trust to arrange family counseling for my family and I, to make an agreement with my mother and have me see an extra therapist, and to even take legal action and make sure that all of my online accounts were being watched carefully since #hatehaylie was a trending topic for a gruesome month on twitter.
I had to admit, if it were anyone but Justin arranging all of these events into place, I definitely would have not let it go through, seeing as how stubborn I am. But I placed my trust in Justin, having him being the actual reason, and it was one of the best decisions I've ever made in my entire life. Because after all, look where I was and am now - I regained my focus in school with a high average, my friends were constantly asking to hang out ever since I started going out again and at the end of the day I really could speak to my mom about any problems that were bothering me. Not that I ever needed to, Justin was always my first choice.
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