So I'm April and I love to read and write. I've gone through a lot although I've only been in high school for two years. I've been depressed and cut, I've been happy. I was with my first love for eight months when we broke up, met another boy who ended up breaking my heart again. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer and I found out how much she means to me.
I've been on witty since October, 2008 and I love it. I've gotten a lot of emotion out on here. If anyone is serious about writing, you should defintly check out teenink.com where you can submit your work for others to read it. Or you could always check out my website aprilandwritings.com. I can relate to a lot so feel free to contact me via email or comment on my page!
Thanks for reading,
Sometimes I find myself still thinking of you and missing you. Other times, I'm so glad I'm over you. There are times when my heart is grieving for you. And others when my head is yelling at me for leaving you. But I know that it's over, I know I can't turn back now. So I'm gonna keep moving on, Until I found someone new.
yoittsapeyy posted a quote
November 26, 2010 1:45pm EST
"&I'm done hoping that we can work it out; I'm done with how it feels; Spinning my wheels,&letting you drag my heart around. &Oh, I'm done thinking you could ever change. I know my heart will never be the same, But I'm telling myself I'll be okay, Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger."
Sitting here. Alone tonight. Trying to figure out; Where we went wrong. Where the road we were on ended. Or if it ended at all. If we just lost sight of it; Or if it's really gone. I look back; Not just on the text messages, the e-mails, the letters; But all those times. The smiles, the laughs, the kisses; The tears. The ones that made you realize how much you meant to me; The ones that made you realize how you can hurt me; The ones that were brought on by someone else, That you made better again. Times we had; Haunted memories in my house. My room. On my couch. In my kitchen. The hallway. Every room here; Has a memory or two of you. How can I give up on you, When you're all that I see?
Running, running. You're running back. Replaying this movie scene. Over and over. Again and again. The same words pouring out of your mouth. Time and time again. You keep running, Running right back; You keep leaving; Saying you're never coming back. What to do, What to do? Running, running. You're coming back.
Why can't I just let go? Oh, the thought of you; Some where with someone else; Doin' what we used to do; Feelin' what we felt; Oh, I know it's really over; &&You're never coming back; &&There's no way that I can make it right; Still I wonder. oh, I wonder; Oh, baby, I can't help but wonder; Who's kissing you tonight? </3 -Jason Aldean<3
"heavan help the [ f o o l ] who did her w---ron---g, It's too late, Too Bad, She's too far --->gone<--- He should've thought of that, Before he left her all (a)lo[ne], If she's lonely now, she won't be lonely long." ♥
Somehow Tears fill my eyes, As I feel his kiss, For the last time. I close my eyes tight, And hold him close, Knowing this is the end. He's leaving now, I hope he finds his way, Somehow. I still hope he'll be okay. Trying to understand, What's going on with today. My life is crashing around, I've let go of so much, In a single moment. Memories, tears, and laughs, I'll never be able to recall. I wish it meant nothing at all. Places I'll never go again, Talks I won't forget. No more us. No more you. My best friend turned into my forever, and now he's gone, forever. I can't bear to look back now, But I know you think of me, Somehow. Just a tug on my heart, A feeling in my brain, Nothing is gonna be okay.
Here. Gone. Back again. Your words keep spinning, Through my head. Done. Sorry. Just can't stop. One more drag, Could mean the end. I don't why, I'm in this again. Can't think. Can't talk. I'll get hurt again. It's hard on you. It's hard on me. Don't know how to make you see. Here. Gone. Back again. Please, stop messing with my head. I hear what you're saying. Just shut up. Done. Sorry. Just can't stop. Please, try. No more of this. The world keeps spinning, I keep stopping. Can't think. Can't talk. I'll get hurt again. I'm just gonna run. Quick, quick. Get away. Here. Gone. Not again.
You're out again tonight, Another worthless lie, I know where you're at, You're not with who you said, You're out with her again. You believe I don't suspect, This is everything I will ever regret. I remember times, When I'm alone, Holding your hand, Kissing your cheek, lips, and head, Letting you know that you weren't alone, I guess it wasn't enough, To show you through the little things I try to do, I wish I was still with the real you. You would have never thought of another in the begining, Until she came around. You said it was one night with your best friend, I trusted you with her, You never saw that your real best friend drove by you, While you two were kissing tenderly in your car. So, while you believe I don't assume, I'll sit here crying in my room. Waiting for you to call or text, I know you don't suspect, I know anything, But really, I know everything.
&&i'm sorry, I'm not myself around your friends, I don't tell you when I'm upset, He told me not to, He told me he didn't wanna hit me, Then I got a spack in the face. I'm stupid, loud, and obnxious, I wasn't allowed to be myself, Around anyone. I'm not supposed to be this girl, You're not supposed to love me this way! I'm a bad girl, aren't I? He told me so! You should be hitting me! You should be attempting to rip away every last piece of my heart. You're not supposed to be nice unless I'm good. Instead, I'm good for being me? Stupid, obnixous, loud, crazy, annoying? That's what he always said; Why are you so different? This isn't what I'm used to. I'm so confused. What am I supposed to do?
&&you may not think he is, but I think he the cutest, sweetest, most amazing, wonderful, person that has ever walked on the Earth. &&if you have anything else to say about itt; Expect a punch in the face (: