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1 decade ago
that sounds good and i'll explain that on text. reply
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1 decade ago
I do too. and the boy in my picture is my brother. i had to say goodbye today. text is best. i'm always gone from home so. :/ reply
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1 decade ago
I have more muscles than a lot of the boys in my grade and it sucks. And thank you. :/ i don't go on here often though.
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1 decade ago
I'm honestly trying so hard though and it kills me to feel so alone some days. I have softball almost every night which also leaves me no time for dinner and then I get yelled at. Like today, all I had to eat was 5 sunflower seeds at my game. I did horrible today. :( I got called fat the other day and it's just stuck to me now and I can't shake it out of my head. reply
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1 decade ago
It's just a lot with my eating disorder lately. I'm under a lot of stress with softball. My brother just left again. I hate myself. Everyone is leaving me. It's just a lot. reply
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1 decade ago
I'm not really sure anymore. Numb.
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1 decade ago
You're very welcome. How are you? reply
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1 decade ago
Thank you. If you ever need to talk, I'm here too. reply
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1 decade ago
and thank you for the comment on my quote, it means a lot to me. reply
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1 decade ago
Hey, thanks.♥ :( You are too. reply
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1 decade ago
Ashley, I may not want to be here, but I am. For you. Honestly nothing is going right but I'm glad I'm here, tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life. My brother is coming, thank God. I needed it. But thank you for keeping me here every day. Thank you for pushing me on. I can't wait for that BIG hug either.♥ I need it. Bad. Oh my gosh, today was scary when I collapsed. I thought I was gone and I realized maybe I'm not ready to leave. When my coach was saying "breathe Nikita breathe" I could barely hear him, everything was white. But when I woke more, I kissed the ground. I was so scared. I'm so sorry I didn't eat or drink, I am. :( Recovery is slowly scaring me away and nobody is helping right now except you. Thank you Ashley, for being the best big sister ever. I love you, I hope you know that. I really care about you. You need to get better and it makes me worried when you talk about college because I'm not sure if you'll listen to me about eating. You need to eat. You deserve recovery. Just remember one thing if I'm ever gone, things get better.♥ I. Love. You. :) Hey, smile, you're beautiful. reply
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1 decade ago
You just made my day. :) I'm sorry I haven't been texting you, I broke my phone charger and didn't get home until 4am and just got up. You are amazing and I'm so happy for you that you can start your life at college. Please don't forget about me and stay with me, I need you. I'm so glad that you can say I helped you, it makes me so so so happy. You've been through a lot this year and look, you're still fighting.♥ I'll always be here. Together. Never forget that word. :) I love you Ashley. Keep your head up, things get better. I promise.♥ Thank you for that, I needed that. reply
xx* · 1 decade ago
got ittt
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xx* · 1 decade ago
that sounds good and i'll explain that on text.
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xx* · 1 decade ago
I do too. and the boy in my picture is my brother. i had to say goodbye today. text is best. i'm always gone from home so. :/
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xx* · 1 decade ago
I have more muscles than a lot of the boys in my grade and it sucks. And thank you. :/ i don't go on here often though.
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xx* · 1 decade ago
I'm honestly trying so hard though and it kills me to feel so alone some days. I have softball almost every night which also leaves me no time for dinner and then I get yelled at. Like today, all I had to eat was 5 sunflower seeds at my game. I did horrible today. :( I got called fat the other day and it's just stuck to me now and I can't shake it out of my head.
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xx* · 1 decade ago
It's just a lot with my eating disorder lately. I'm under a lot of stress with softball. My brother just left again. I hate myself. Everyone is leaving me. It's just a lot.
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xx* · 1 decade ago
I'm not really sure anymore. Numb.
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xx* · 1 decade ago
You're very welcome. How are you?
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xx* · 1 decade ago
Thank you. If you ever need to talk, I'm here too.
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xx* · 1 decade ago
Thanks, so are you.♥
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xx* · 1 decade ago
and thank you for the comment on my quote, it means a lot to me.
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xx* · 1 decade ago
Hey, thanks.♥ :( You are too.
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xx* · 1 decade ago
Ashley, I may not want to be here, but I am. For you. Honestly nothing is going right but I'm glad I'm here, tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life. My brother is coming, thank God. I needed it. But thank you for keeping me here every day. Thank you for pushing me on. I can't wait for that BIG hug either.♥ I need it. Bad. Oh my gosh, today was scary when I collapsed. I thought I was gone and I realized maybe I'm not ready to leave. When my coach was saying "breathe Nikita breathe" I could barely hear him, everything was white. But when I woke more, I kissed the ground. I was so scared. I'm so sorry I didn't eat or drink, I am. :( Recovery is slowly scaring me away and nobody is helping right now except you. Thank you Ashley, for being the best big sister ever. I love you, I hope you know that. I really care about you. You need to get better and it makes me worried when you talk about college because I'm not sure if you'll listen to me about eating. You need to eat. You deserve recovery. Just remember one thing if I'm ever gone, things get better.♥ I. Love. You. :) Hey, smile, you're beautiful.
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xx* · 1 decade ago
Thanks. :) You are too!
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xx* · 1 decade ago
You just made my day. :) I'm sorry I haven't been texting you, I broke my phone charger and didn't get home until 4am and just got up. You are amazing and I'm so happy for you that you can start your life at college. Please don't forget about me and stay with me, I need you. I'm so glad that you can say I helped you, it makes me so so so happy. You've been through a lot this year and look, you're still fighting.♥ I'll always be here. Together. Never forget that word. :) I love you Ashley. Keep your head up, things get better. I promise.♥ Thank you for that, I needed that.
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xx* · 1 decade ago
♥♥♥
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xx* · 1 decade ago
I just messed it all up and erased it. :/
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xx* · 1 decade ago
I'm changing my whooooole profile right now. :p
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xx* · 1 decade ago
I love you. ♥
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xx* · 1 decade ago
I am okay. :/ Yesterday was my birthday.
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