30 Days, 30 Letters
Day 11 - A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk To
Dear Grandpa,
Grandpa, I miss you so, so much. There's so much that I would be so proud to tell you, but I can't right now because you're up in Heaven. I miss you so much. I miss all of the fun times we've had, playing school and talking about our little "countries" that we invented. It's enough to make me cry - I'm tearing up as I write this! You are the best grandfather a girl could ever ask for. You've done so much for me, and I will love you forever. I think about you each and every day, and the day you died completely changed my world. I remember exactly where I was and how I felt, and I don't even like to think about it. I was a wreck. I'm sure you looked down from up above at me when I went to your funeral. I was sobbing hysterically! It was awful to see you go. I still have to refrain myself from crying right now, because I still have that "post-death-guilt," in which I feel bad for any times I may have hurt you. I will never recover from that fully, but it will never bring me down. I love you so much, and I know you'd want me to be strong and share my accomplishments with you. That's what I want to do! Since the passing, so many great things have happened. Even though I can't verbally tell you about them, you can still see me from up above, and you can see everything that happens! Also, when you had to watch my brother whenever I publicly sang, I felt bad that you'd miss it. Now, you'll never miss it again. I love you so, so much, and thinking about you sitting in my kitchen with me is making me cry as I write this. I know you don't want me to, but it's human. I love you so much, though! I have hope that you love me, too, and I know you do. I know you want me to be happy, even though I feel that aforementioned guilt. I'll try! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
With more love than you could imagine,
Your granddaughter
P.S. You are the best! You were the most amazing friend. And you still are. When 11:11 comes tonight, I'll be thinking of you.
<3