After the nights events
this is what i've learned.
Don't give up on love, ever. it's worth fighting for.
earlier tonight my boyfriend broke up with me, he said he couldn't take it anymore. He said he was tired of arguing all the time, that he didn't want to hurt me anymore. he loves me and wants to be with me, he's happy with me. but he didnt wanna cause me anymore pain. i always complained, about everything. it was always you don't care enough, you don't love me, or me getting mad about every little thing. i always thought our problems were his fault. but it turns out, it was all my fault. i'm insecure, i over react ALOT. i complain constantly. he said no matter what he does for me, it's never enough.
and he's right, that's exactly how i treated him. i never meant any of it though. he did make me happy, he was enough. i know he loves me, i know he cares. he said it felt like the right thing to do, but then again it didn't. he didn't want me to be sad, and he didn't wanna lose me. he didn't want me to hate him. i could never hate him. he wanted me to still be his friend. but i know some of you out there has to know what it's like to be with someone for seven months and then just lose them, there's no being just friends after that. atleast not for me. and if it wasn't for my older brother, i wouldn't of made it through that. but after three or four hours of crying on the phone with my boyfriend. we finally both understood what eachother had to say, and agreed that what we have is worth putting down our pride for and trying to fix it. i'm not going to lie. i didn't really see our problems, cause i was causing them by saying things i didn't mean. it was all my fault. and i told him i'd change and do what it took to make him happy again and make things work. and i'm going to do exactly that. i love him with all my heart and at that point all i could think is i can't go on, it's not supposed to end like this. i couldn't imagine the rest of my life without him in it. to all the girls (or guys?) that read this. thanks. maybe it inspired some of you, maybe it didn't. just thought sharing my story would maybe help some of you in some way. always remember, it's worth fighting for, putting your pride down for. and before you jump to conclusions, try talking to the person about it first. i guess the main message of posting this was,
Don't give up on love.
it's hard to find, y'know♥
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