Hi, my names Christine. I'm 13 years old, and turn 14 in july. I have blonde hair, and blue eyes. In my honest opinon i'm the ugliest thing that stepped foot onto the earth. I have alot of feeligs bottled up iside and i don't like to express myself. I don't have alot of friends, but the ones i do have i fucking adore. I'm diagnosed with depression, and i have a lot of anxiety. No one really notices me at my school, and the people that do fucking harass me. i've been bullied since 1st grade. I remember everything everyone says to me, good or bad. I write suicide notes everyday, i don't know why i'm so scared to go through with it. I get relief in my problems by cutting myself. I have scars on my left arm and both my legs. If i ever were to kill myself i'd make sure it'd be really bloody. That's just how sick my mind is. I don't come on witty often, but i hope if someone ever finds my witty they'll get me help. I feel trapped all the time, i ranaway once but like for 5 hours and no one noticed, which i kinda understand. But whatevs. Theres alot behind why i do what i do then just people. School just makes everything a lot worse. I don't tell people how i feel because people always judge, it's just human nature. All these words.. are just a quarter of what i go through. You don't know everything, and it's non of your business. I suggest you don't want to talk to me, i'm depressing and you'll get sick of me. i swear to you , you will. Everyone does, my friends, my family, my teachers, my therapists, my pyschiatrists. Is that sad or what. Words cant describe how i feel, mostly just everyone hates me and everyone hurts me. Whatever, that's not even all i had to say. But whatever if you read this, i won't care . I'm not as mean as i sound either, i'm actually really down to earth. A little too down. bye.