Framing Love
Dedicated to FramingMatthew and Societykilledtheteenager
"Alyza you can come in now." The doctor spoke to me.
I walked through the door and my eyes found Matthew.
I looked around on the cold white tiles of the hospital floor as i sat in the black cushioned chair. How did things come to this?
He looked weaker, his skin so pale, almost see through.
"Matthew." I whispered in a hushed tone.
He looked up and saw me sitting down next to him.
"Alyza." He said in a tone no louder than a whisper.
He motioned for me to come closer to him, I stood up.
He patted the side of his bed and I sat down.
"Matthew." I said again.
I burst into tears and using all his strength, he pulled me down onto him.
I rolled up and snuggled next to him and cried.
"Don't cry Alyza. Be strong for me. Please." He spoke into my ear.
I looked up at him and sat up.
"Am I allowed to kiss you?" I asked him.
He rubbed circles on my back and smiled, "Why do you even ask?"
He leaned foward and kissed me gently, pulling away as quick as he could.
I put my lips gently on his. They felt weaker, almost papery. I could tell it was the end.
"Rest Matthew. Don't put yourself in pain." I whispered at him, tears forming in my eyes.
"The only thing that hurts is knowing you're hurting." He whispered at me.
I frowned, "What's hurting me is cancer hurting you." I felt my voice rise towards the end.
He put his hand on my face and I felt how unusually cold and papery his skin felt.
I touched his face. The purple shadows underneath his eyes. I let my hands trace around his shallow cheeks. I touched his lips with my fingers and cried.
I put my hand over my face, trying to stop the tears.
"It'll be okay Alyza." He whispered at me.
I let the tears fall from my eyes some more.
"It'll be okay." He said again.
"No it won't be." I said, "I won't ever see you again."
He frowned at me, "Alyza. No matter what happens. I'll always be there for you. I'll be your guardian angel. I will be watching over you. You might not see me, but I'll see you. I will never let any harm come your way. I'll see you in heaven." He kissed me on my lips again.
I looked him in the eyes and cried. "Don't leave me. Ever." I cried at him.
He rubbed my back some more, "What's hurting me is that you're hurt."
"How could I not be hurt?" I asked him. "I love you and you're leaving me."
He looked at me for a second, "Do you ever think I'd leave you? Ever? I loved you more than words could explain. I will never EVER stop caring. I'll be your guardian angel. You have to understand that."
I thought about what he said and wiped my tears away.
"I love you Matthew." I whispered.
I saw his eyes close and knew it was the end.
"I love you too Alyza."
"We need you to leave." A nurse said too me.
"Get the IV ready."
"Get me a towel."
"Medication. Stat."
I heard a bustling of noises around me.
The nurse put her arms around my waist and helped me out.
I sat down for hours as people went in and out of his room.
"Miss. Alyza?" The doctor said too me.
From the look in his eyes I saw tears falling, I knew what the news would be.
I looked up at him with a tear streaked face.
"He told me to tell you, he loves you. He also told me to give you this." He handed me a white, folded up sheet of paper.
' I'll always be with you.' It said.
I looked up at the ceiling with the tears falling from my eyes.
I watched as a ray of sunshine burst into through the window.
I looked at it and smiled, "I love you Matthew." I whispered letting the tears fall.
So, I had tears falling the whole time I was writing this.
It hurts to know framingmatthew is no longer with us.
I hope the day comes when cancer is just a zodiac sign.
RIP FramingMatthew .