Do you stand in front of the mirror and just cry...?
Pulling at the fat that only you can see...?
Pointing out the flaws that make you ugly...?
I've been there.
It hurts.
But you're beautiful.
Don't let those jerks let you down because they can't see it.
Do you kneel in front of the toilet after every meal?
Raw knuckles scraping your teeth as silent tears run down your cheeks?
It hurts too, but you tell yourself it's worth it.
But is it really?
Notice how your friends are extra careful around you, like they'll break you?
It's because you look like you'll crack if the touch you.
I've been there too.
If you couldn't be the pretty one, you were going to be the skinny one.
All you wanted was a thigh gap.
And then you started to see your hip bones!
And then you're spine started showing through your pale layer of skin.
The light is gone from your eyes, you always look sick.
But you convince yourself you're not sick.
You aren't sick at all.
You're skinny.
But it still hurts.
And it's never enough.
You're never skinny enough.
And you'll keep getting smaller, and smaller until there's nothing left.
Then you'll be gone.
And you never really wanted that,
you just wanted to be skinny;
to be pretty.
Pretty's just a petty word.
You're beautiful and you don't need to be society's idea of pretty;
you don't need to be thigh gap-bones showing-skinny.
Skinny is beautiful,
Curvy is just as beautiful too.
Don't let anyone's perception on you make you feel like you need to change.
Because you don't.
So before you deny that meal or hate yourself because you ate,
remember that I think you're beautiful.
And deep down inside, behind the hate that people caused,
you know you're beautiful too.
♥
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