Girlfriend's Best Friend
CHAPTER 24 x x x .
I had to explain to Brooke that this conversation wasn’t about how I used to feel about her. It was about how she herself had been feeling but wouldn’t tell anyone. She said she couldn’t handle herself well, but I wasn’t sure what she meant by that.
“I hate myself,” she said. She continued on about how all she did was belittle and degrade herself. How no one understood her except for Kelli but now that Kelli’s not there for her anymore, she’s back to being alone. It seemed like she couldn’t escape the person she thought she was.
“That scar on your face…you did that to yourself, didn’t you?” I pieced it together. Out of nowhere, she started bawling and yelling at me that Kelli had to have told me.
“Whoa no, no, no, Kelli didn’t tell me anything. I figured it out myself,” I tried to calm her down. She didn’t believe me and kept yelling at me— I didn’t know what to say because I was telling the truth and she still wouldn’t take it.
Honestly, Kelli had given me little hints about it, but never full out told me. She said Brooke wouldn’t tell us about her scar not only because she was embarrassed and ashamed by it, but also because it made her more mysterious, keeping people guessing, wondering, and above all just thinking of her—that’s what she’s always wanted.
If she was ashamed by it, she must have done something that she regrets in order to have gotten it. Kelli said she regretted it a lot, but that she was crazy and needed attention somehow. Kelli didn’t understand Brooke the same way that Brooke didn’t understand Kelli. I don’t think Brooke did this for attention—she was seriously damaged. I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to put her back together. But I’d still try.
“You’re a beautiful girl Brooke, and it makes me so upset to know you felt like cutting your own face would make you feel better. Please don’t do that Brooke. You don’t have to. I know why you’re always trying to leave North Carolina to look at far places to live. It’s not because you’re trying to find adventure—you’re trying to find yourself. I can help you. I feel partly responsible for taking Kelli from you, so if you ever need anything, just come to me. Since she isn’t there for you anymore, I’ll be there. I don’t want to see you hurting this bad,” I kissed her forehead to console her, because she really just needed someone right now.
I looked back at Brooke to say one last thing, but before I could, she did something I wasn’t expecting.
She kissed me.
Note: I think that's good for today hahaha do you hate me for leaving it like this? ;p