Keep your head up and stay strong. Everyone goes through stages and makes bad decisions, and I promise ending your life is a bad decision. You will make it through this, you just have to believe in yourself. You leaving will affect so many lives, hurt so many people. Look at yourself and your life and be thankful for everything that you have. You have so much of your life ahead of you, don't end it now. Things will be better, I am telling you that with all of my heart. They won't get better if you don't let them though.
Be grateful for the life and opportunities that you have right now. You will learn and become something great. But you never know what will happen if you stop right now. Life is always going to have its ups and downs and no one can help that. However, when you are stuck in a down moment, take small steps back up and smile to yourself because it could always be worse. You are beautiful, you are loved, and you are going to get through this.
PLEASE, DO NOT KILL YOURSELF.
If you need to talk, please, do not hesitate, I am here. I will not judge you, nor will anyone on here, I am sure of it.